Self destruction.

Suicidal, breakdown, depression, cutting and such aren't beautiful. It is in no way for you to seek attention by claiming you suffered from any of those if you're not experiencing it. It hurts. It pains you. And it isn't a joke for anyone to laugh at it. People melts down at some point in their life. There are days where some people have bad day, others have nightmares. But those unlucky ones, they have bad days, nightmares, bad thoughts constantly. There isn't a lull moment in between for a happy to come through. Its a constant wave which wipe put everything except negative vibe that chains them. It just happen to some people. Maybe not you and for that, consider yourself lucky. But people like me who experienced a complete mental break down to the point suicidal does seem the only solution, self destruction is a serious matter. 

You can't make joke out of that, you

just can't.