A curious case.

It is extremely rare for me to be fond of people. I always find flaws in people and mostly in myself. And so, I fail any relationship I thought unnecessary for me to carry on with others. It applies to my friends, peers and classmates or anyone I have encounter. I have never understood the need to make as many friends as you could. If there are people who I talked to without hating them, I called them acquaintance. If I actually like them, I reckon them as friends. To label someone as a friend, required a length of time for me to see if someone fit to be called so. If s/he doesn't , I won't hesistate to erase them completely from my life. As how often I found people to be extremely dissappointing as friends, it seems very rare for me to fall in love with some souls out of pure kindness without thinking their worth.

Yesterday, I found one. I'm usually shy around people in first meeting. If they look fine or approachable or doesn't give annoying vibe to me, only then I will come around and say hello. I joined a group meeting. It was spontaneous and I never expected it to be a 12 people grouped when I was told it will only be 6. I hate crowded place. Anyhoo, there I went sticking only to my sister, Kak Farhana and tailing her along the day. Then I met Kak Niza. She was susprisingly sweet and kind. Well, I was surprise because given of my past, I found seldom people are fond of me when they met me. But there she was. Helping me out, conversing with me and I could actually feel she sincerely was fond of me. I was extremely touched when she helped me out during at the end of our group meeting. We were to choose something and relate it with ourselves. It was hard for me to talk in a group saying cheesy things. I don't know it seem cheesy and awkward and so I was only able to choke 2 sentences. Then Kak Niza took the spotlight and save me from a heart attack. I was grateful to her. 

It's often a curious case for me when I fell in love with a soul without knowing further of them. And yesterday, Kak Niza was one of my rare curious case.