Mean.

You see,

It's not because I lack of social skills or I don't have any interest to meet new people, it's just I don't find any pleasure talking to anyone which wouldn't benefit me in any way. Now, I'm not saying I'm befriended people for beneficial purpose. But what's the use of small talk which leads to nothing ? Often I got away with my strict face and silence glare so no one would talk to me. I honestly like it that way. With only few circle of friends, I find peace in that. Then again, maybe I got carry away with my own rules I end up offending people.

Sorry to you and you, who mustered up efforts to be friendly. I just don't see the reason why. I'm quite happy if everyone just keep their distance away. Really I am. But deep down, I feel tremendously sorry for not being responsive enough when someone tries to converse with me.

Someone said first impression is really important, but I'd say first impression is really irrelevant and judgmental. I find quite a number of people who dislike me at first but learn to love me along the way. I just don't open up to people easy I guess.  Still, I'm very sorry to anyone who tries to make a conversation and I end up ignoring you and offends you or embarrassed you.

It's probably nothing to anybody just to talk with random people, but it takes me a lot of courage just to say Hi to someone.

Sorry, I'm just a little mean most of the time.